questions...

do i have the fear of loosing you?
or will i have the pleasure to be urs?
am i already too late?
or i was jus never on time?

do i sound stupid?
or i was jus never smart?
do i feel pain much?
or is it an illusioN?

am jus another dreamer?
or my wish is really true?
would i survive without u?
or would i jus breahte?

can i come any closer?
or i was jus too far?
was my trying worth it?
or i could never try enough?

can I feel your heart?
or its out of my reach?
can i hear ur voice?
or am I deaf to hear?

can i see ur face?
or my mind is jus enough?
do i die trying for u?
or its jus never mine?

am I in love or not?
is this so painful always?
or is it jus for me?
will i end up like this?

will i always be a looser?
or scared to win ur heart?
is this really that tough?
or i cant jus try enough?

will our paths ever cross?
or will i never get the chance?
how do i say these three words?
screaming or crying out loud?

i love you..

eternal scream

brutaly murderd soul
with the defeated goal
do u realise how it feels?
when I never won a battle?

embarassed by the laughter
cursed by the feeling of pleasure
shouting to hear silence
breathing to make u smile

walking in the dark for a light
fear and pain rushing out
trying to escape my mind
unknowing that the pain and fear in me is infinite.

do i cry or is it dust?
or is it jus an excuse to hide?
wont u ever know me?
or do I have to tel every single thing?

why did I fall in love with u?
is it my greatest mistake?
or is it my unsolved mistery?
sleepless and breathless

all i hear is the silence around
am I mental or am i haunted?
do i know the reason why i'm breathing?
or do i really feel pain

that made me forget everythng?

Dreams of desire

when i'm all alone
with the stars above
your the only one
I wish to be with

When the wind blows
and the waves play music
I wish upon a star
to hug u tight in my arms

wish the sun would never rise
and the night remains cold
the heat from your body
gives the warmth of care

my eyes wide open
sleepless silent night
memories too sweet to be forgotten
lets me know its jus a dream

I wish i could touch you
as deep inside reigns babyish love
in truth i cannot see you
it might hurt too much

I miss you princess....

One of my favourite songs..with a pic i shot recently

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

all i need is just one step closer to you